...just feel completely out of sorts today. taken a while to work out why which sounds a bit daft really.

i find July a difficult month. 27 yrs next Sunday since mum died.

most of the time i get on with it. sometimes it just gets the better of me.

i ache for all that we both missed out on.

i'll be ok. this will lift and pass...until the next time that is.

some of you wont understand what i'm saying and some of you will understand all too well.

Mother loss - never quite goes away does it?

Catbells x

Know how you feel Catbells. My mum would have been 82 yesterday. She died 8 years ago and I think each year the pain has got worse on those special days. Sometimes I just feel down, then I remember the date so it is deeper than the memory. I didn't even get on with mine so if you were close it must be a lot worse even after all this time.

to you and everyone else feeling the loss at the moment.

to the both of you

it is hard I lost my grandad (I know its not the same but I was very close to him and it was so out of the blue) 3 years ago it was a few days before my birthday so I feel it hard to enjoy my birthdays, I find its the little things like cards at xmas and bdys etc... things u take for granted I supose.
it must be worse for you both not beening that close either, but keep ur chins up and rem the happy times (im sure there are some )
x

hugs for you all

Hugs to all.

for all three of you.

I still have my mum but she lives in another country so I only see her every two or three years.I was hoping to go this summer but everything seems to be against me so I'm not sure if I will be able to.I lost my dad 24years ago.I have aphoto where I place a flower at his anniversary.It is difficult and some years are worse than others depending how you are in general or sometimes it just hits you.A song you hear or a place you visit.

I feel my kids have missed out especially the younger two as they haven't much experience of any grandparents.So I know where you are coming from Catbells.

Do you get to talk to her regularly Jack? and/or writing to one another. that must be disappointing for you if you dont think you will be able to go and see her this year. Does she come over and see you at all?

i think ppl sometimes forget the isignificance of having an older generation there for our children. They can learn so much from one another as well as the precious times that can be shared.

x

My heart goes out to you all. I'm very lucky not to have lost my parents. We haven't had the best of relationships but I do try to make the effort for the sake of my children, as they adore them.

The loss of my nan remains a very poignant memory...even though it was nearly 16 years ago.

From my early 20s she was forever hopeful for a grandchild and would frequently make comments to that effect. When I fell pregnant she was over the moon. However when my son was born, after having contacted both sets of parents, I attempted to phone her....again and again I tried....to break the news. I even asked my mum NOT to tell her as I wanted to be the bearer of the good news. The following day she was found dead....... a heart attack.....and she never got to hear about her grandson let alone meet him It upsets me to think of the pain she was going through, as I was experiencing the most joyous moment of my life to date.

(((((((((((Whosrose))))))))))))))

that's a poignant memory.

Catbells x